I WANT THEM TO BE MY NEIGHBOURS.

ok,*ehem *ehem.
i know you guys miss me,due to the lack of updates.

so many things happened but majority are insignificant.
bear that in mind.

to the both of you,don't let the abilities of man get in the way.
not worth it i say,but easier said than done.aku paham.

Aini
i swear i feel fucking bad that i was keeping things from you.i never had the intention to lead you on further.ganging up with amirul was not the priority.my motives was not to wipe off that smile on your face.i know you too well,i want you to be happy.
S.O.R.R.Y.
never mention about being homo again.sumpah aku tembak kau!

Siti
u were never the third party.
things happened,and it happened for a reason.never get things in the way between us since u got him.ada hal bole berbual ey minah rock.
smoking weed is bad bitch!haha.

Sometimes i keep drowning myself with other's problems.
I'm willing to forego anything in this world ,except the both of them.
dorang macam side-kicks aku gitu ar.

Ardian and i are back on track,again.
some of u may start swearing and cursing me already.aku paham.
his off days = must meet-up session!
thats how possesive i am.haha.

oh ya,in school now dengan atiqah.
planning to cabot,but the boyfriend had to run some errands before meeting up.
atiqah,sapa kawan kau sekarang?answer with your heart.haha.drama beb.

ok.saturday = i'm not looking forward but anticipating.
because i'm having my dental appmt on that day which means i have to force myself eating porride for breakfast,lunch and dinner.something to moan about for me.
but.....i will be spending the whole day with the boyfriend and minah-gempak.
yes ar.aku nak!
jom.
how i wish saturday will never end.



*lets kiss under the moonlight,again.

so tomorrow i will be out from my house.
fuck dammit.
i am so so so gonna miss my spastics minah-gempaks.
may 6 months be over like no one's business.

mak aku kelakar abes.
dia beli dvd pochong.then throughout the whole movie,she was wearing sun-glasses.
hahaha.
mom:ey hanif,kecik kan la suare.kuat sangat tu.
hanif:dah kecik la nie.
mom:kecik kan je la,mama takot nie.kau jgn degil ey!
hanif:ape nie kecik kan suare aje.....mama tak paya tengok la.susahkan hanif je.buat ape tgk kalau tak dgr suare abeh asyik tutup mata aje.ape saje la.
mom:kurangajar kau ey!! @#$$#

my holiday is sucking up most of my leisure time.
and i got no more fags.something to moan about.
and i seriously need a holiday.kanina betol.
i'm craving for satay.

last night lepak was downbeat.even though we didn't talked much,i was pretty much contented.
to be with you till 2am in the morning,and reminiscence about the times we once shared almost bring tears to my eyes.
but then i thought,things happen for a reason.i'm seeing it as a blessing in disguise.

xxx to the girl.u won.u got back what u've always wanted.happy now?
you tried to meet him discreetly but were caught red-handed,are you happy with your role?
it's funny to me how you've turned into suca joke.haha.

beautiful girl,can we kissed and play pretend till the dawn break through.

its 2.42 am.
i think i'm not sleepy.but i'm having a mild headache.
i thinks thanks to ardian.cause we were sitting in the rain 6hrs ago for a few mins.
he say "u won't die,its only water".
fuck.kepala otak.skrg kepala aku dah ada koyok nie.tak glam langsung.
ok this is random.
the rihanna cry track has been on the repeat mode in my playlist.
now,it has been playing for the 36th times.
both my buah-hati chuchu is missing their firefighters.
i love hillary duff!

i still remember the convo between aini and ardian
aini:ey,kau pakai singlet ey kat dlm?
ardian:tak ar,aku pakai coli.
hahhahah.

xxx those were the days.
so make me promises boy,the kind i know u can keep.

everyone has been very supportive of me.
the classic ones will be "u lost the battle la wanie,ur tits not as h.o.t as her"
haha.thanks people.

we talked last night.
he tried to explain but i realised,its better not to know.
u told me i was quick to make a judgement,which was irrational.
but the trust is no longer there.
then again,u've said the choice is yours.i agree.
u mentioned about having faith in your words,i did.
be glad that u no longer have to crack your head on which pussy to choose anymore.
cause i'm more than willing to let u go.thank god we've only known for 2 months.
let this be a lesson learnt for you.

no matter how heartbroken,disheartened and pathetic looking i am now.
its you that i feel sorry for.

ok i'm fucking excited.
cause rashid just msg me.i've just bought something online and his helping with the shipping thingy.
yay,i'm excited.

xxx project tmr.and the day after.and the day after.

it turned out the way i've expected.it was never easy for me.
u lead me on further,deep and hard.
perhaps u want the best of both world.
i don't blamed u,cause 4yrs is long.
but that doesn't give you the license to make a move on any girl,when u have her at the back of your mind.
looking back,i realise it was a sweet lie.every single words and actions.
i thought u eventually moved on.
and i was naive to even fall for it.maybe u meant what u've said,but then again,your actions are contradicting.
i should have seen it coming,fast.

the ex is being a bitch as well.
act someone your age please,aren't u sick of playing the "who's better game" ?
sometimes i sincerely think i'm more matured than you.
and the best part is,u fucking took a half-naked bra-less pic and sent it to him.
so u can say,"its my breast and i show off to whoever i want to since his my number one."
it was uncalled for,really.if u think that photo can make things turned,then,u win.
so what if u love him?its your dignity for goodness sake.don't your parents teach u that?
i swear i will never stood to that level.
hari ni tetek,besok puki.hah,murah beb.

so i've asked a few of my boyfriends and 98% said the same thing.
"kalau aku,aku taknak sial itu minah lagik,buat main je la.pakai buang."
yes ar,korang rocks.tapi kesian ar tu minah,dia buat gitu sebabkan nak kau balik sial.hurhur.

i'm sorry to the girl and guy whos affected by this.
dont ever talk about "u fucking mind your own business and its people dignity your messing with"
erm,excuse me.....do she even had one?
and why are u complaining,cause i'm sure u wanna see it real.men.
u should be thankful that i'm not charging this media publicity.
oh wait,do this consider an advert?if yes,then sorry i got no pics to further illustrate the product.
but,its of mild condition ar i think.

ok,it seems like i'm venting my anger.
i'm just frustrated that girls nowadays are willing to do anything for the sake of "love"
come on ar,i dont see the purpose of wearing clothes anymore for the lovers out there.
go walk around town naked,thats love people!

to ardian.
tell me no more lie.dont worry,i'm not shikin.
i wont do any indecency (tits-flashing is bad) and come crying (not forgetting begging ) to you.
explanations are welcome,but the truth please.
after all,i'm just a girl not yet a woman.
alamak,jiwe britney beb.

xxx circle circle dot dot.
aini dan siti,bila mau tunjuk tetek?
tak rock ar korang! lets lick some tits

so fighting with the boyfriend e.v.e.r.y night is mandatory.
but last night argument was ultimate.
it turns out funny,the makeout and laughing session i mean.
i swear i was smiling myself to sleep.

15 th june is next week.
i don't want la!
i told my mom i need KL now.
i need!not i want!please bear that in mind.

ok ar.having tutorial in 8 mins time.
hurhur.seeeee yaaaaa suckass.

xxx i picture her in my sleep.
i need a time-machine.

we keep going back and forth.
the arguments was unnecessary.
you told me i lied.that was inessential.
i've abide all hurdle before getting where we are.
you took my hands when the day turns to night.
place your lips against mine.
but then again,the wait seems like infinity.



xxx imagine me and u.

comp lab in school is so not fun.
every web aku type semua "access denied ",except for wikipedia.hurhur.

so its set,i will be moving out on the 15th june.
i was in tears the other day, caused i figure that i will be missing something that i'm attached to.
especially now,ardian you should know what!

so yeah,
aini will be helping me with the cleaning and painting my new home.i'm excited.
lets create our own mural ey tam.
amcam dilemma skrg?da ada dua firefighter sial!
aku pon nak jugak!
ada pergi ada balik ey minah bravo!


i hate the girl.
the one who loves my man.cheebye.