peoples,goes takes a cups of coffees.hehe.
longs entrys ar!haha.grammar idiot.
i'm sorry it ended this way.
you told me,"its not fair for me cause it has always been work or you".
well,i overlooked that part.
i told you right from the start,that i'm not ready for commitment and still exploring my options.
commitment is such a strong word that i will go kneeling down to whoever that will grant me to be liberated.thats how freedom fucking means to me.
i'm just used to being single that i didn't realise what i did,hurt you that bad.
maybe its wrong for me to lead you on,i admit.or perhaps i had "sweet revenge" in mind.
to make myself vindicated,it was actually insecurity that made you run,it wasn't me.
i'm self-centred?maybe.
i'm putting my dignity at bay and making a public apology to you.
i apologize,sincerely.
*if your not accepting,then karma will come knocking on my door soon.haha.to his ex,i'm releasing myself from your sorrows.no more cursing and swearing of my existence.i'm sorry for being the third-party.apologies.
i told you before and i'm saying it again.i hide things from you cos i had my own reasons.
i never ever want you to get hurt.ever.cause that was purely out of the question.
i confess this is not the first time.i understand you've been hurt enough.and i don't want you to go through that cycle again.
BUT DOES THAT GIVES YOU A REASON TO ACTUALLY DO THINGS BEHIND MY BACK?
we promised what happens there,stays there.period.that was why i initiate the *ehem* at *ehem*.
ok,a promise is a promise.cannot disclose.dun force horh!
when i told you about the situation,i was waiting for your palm to actually land on my face.
ok i exaggerate,i know your not that violent.but i was hoping for you to give me a thrashtalk.i seriously need a lashing from you after what i've done.i give access to that.
surprisingly,you were calmed enough to say "bla...bla...bla".thanks for that.
well,true enough what you said was just to make yourself or myself feel better.i have no fucking idea what was going through your mind when you had that its-ok-i-know-things-happen-sometimes attitude.
i never harbour any thoughts to play you on.i repeat,NEVER.
i swear even if i had sex with a guy,i would tell you.
just give me some time to put my points acrossed so that i won't further aggravate the matter.
why do you think i initiate that thing?cause i thought things will just fall in place for you.
i need you to alleviate the matter.
illuminate me with your words.
i need something more prononuced from you.not just "it's ok"
you should know i love my tam-tam.
if religion permits,i will marry you.get it?
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you