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Monday, 29 October 2007
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epitome of my own.
i was reading a friend's blog,and instead of grinning from ear to ear,i felt bitter for her.
even though i will no longer hear her cries,i do hope she's fine.
but perhaps,this is karma in returning you the favour.
i was talking to farina the other day trying hard to hold back my tears.
she mention something so strong that i never regret telling her my dilemma.
perhaps its true,the girl was saying all that about me just to make up for what she lack.i dun blame her,its more like a reverse psychology.its almost two month since i last saw or heard from her.i'm trying hard to erase my thoughts of her,give me time.you remind me of a close friend i had,just like you,she paid to much attention the boyfriend.i dared to say all i've said about you in my previous entry because i never had faith in your relationship.i'm aware that i'm not some marriage specialist to actually make such remarks,but i'm just concerned.
take a time off and think.
i'm worried for my mom now.she was doing her daily self-breast examination and found this small lump.went to our family doctor and was referred to ttsh.appointment is next month.praying hard its not malignant.
this is funny.
chai sia:ey itu hari my ex call pukol tiga pagi tanya macam mane nak pergi ke kajang dari puchong.
wanie:abeh?
chai sia:abeh aku marah la.
wanie:wat u say?
chai sia:aku cakap "ey kau call aku pukol tiga pagi untok tanye itu aje?da buta-buta pagi kau kalau tak nak tido aku nak tido ok?" lepas tu aku letak.
wanie:aye bodoh,pagi-pagi buta la bodoh.name je orang malaysia,melayu hancur siak.
chai sia was staring at something outside the shop.
wanie:aye,wat u looking at?
chai sia:no la got chio bu baru jalan.
wanie:mane?
chai sia:oh she just passed away la (while showing me the direction where that "chio girl" was headin to.)
i was laughing damn hard by this time.
wanie:passed BY la gile.
chai sia never fails to make me laugh.she makes my day at work.and she loves to treat me to dinner.i love her.
and she pampers her girlfriend alot.cheebye are kau minah.
ok bye.
xx will your personal attacks make up for what you lack?
epitome of my own.
Sunday, 28 October 2007
just got back from KL.
jalan raya.jauh betol saudara-mara aku.haha.
the bro is badan besar but bersemangat kan semut.
it was a last min decision to balik kampung at batu pahat,johor.
but my bro was hesitating giving a damn lame reason that his not that sure about the way into the kampung area.
so we owned the road in the middle of the jungle blasting some mengaji punya cd.i told him to buka lagu.
"balik kampung....whoah......balik kampung....whoah balik kampung,hati riang " from allahyaham sudirman.
then he said "EY BIAR LA BUKA MENGAJI MALAM-MALAM GINIE.HANTU PON TAKOT NAK DEKAT"
even though i tried to put up a brave front while chanting "bismillah" silently,in front of the bro cos i dun want him to be afraid,i was damn scared as well.i was anxious cos i've watched too many pochong and pontianak video.
i swear i was expecting a lady-in-white to flag our car hoping to get in then got stuck in a cemetery and going round in circles to get ourselves out.
the mom dad and bro was sleeping soundly.nicely tucked in.
however,we were lucky.cause i think the spirits were themselves shocked by having three cars all of a sudden into the jungle.
after two hours,we've reached the kampung.
ok,so i've decided to take up manual.
i got my first practical by the uncle at kampung and i think i'm a safe and qualified driver now without going through all those TP bullshits.i love driving!!
thank god the four hrs ride to KL was not that bad as i was busy watching prison break three.haha.
go download people,its out.
i was trying my best not to sleep as i wanted to be a supportive sister since it was my bro first maiden voyage in wheels.
enough of malaysia.
aini and azhar,we will meet up soon okie.
aku miss korang.dah satu bulan tak jumpe.and sorry didn't get to join for the jalan raya.
met up with farina the other day.she gave me a g-shock watch.
minah-rich.thanks though.
when we meeting again?i wanna give you the levi's shirt.
meet up with faridah and atiqah at ttsh the other day.i miss them.
bile korang nak datang raya rumah aku nie?hari-hari aku duduk depan pintu menunggu kehadiran korang.
netty,lets clubbing sooning aryte?
i miss you.
ok,i'm working later.so need to siap-siap.
someone's birthday coming.wat a bore,and a chore!
epitome of my own.
Sunday, 21 October 2007
second chances they don't matter,people never change.
once a whore,you're nothing more.
i'm sorry that will never change.
well,theres a million other girls who do it just like you.
looking as innocent to get to who.
and i've watched his wildest dream come true.
not one of them involving you.
epitome of my own.
selamat hari raya.
to all my muslim counterparts.
and maaf zahir dan batin to all those who know me.
ok,i know i'm late for the messages.
raya was fun.haha.but malam raya lagik fun.
buka puasa,dgr takbir,then lap tingkap kemudian susun kuih sambil nyanyi lagu raya.even though i was workin mornin that friday,i appreciate the quality time i had with the family after that.heh.then,suddenly the whole family was talking about raya in our yishun home.memories.everyone misses yishun.if only..
first day was fuckin busy.the first customer,nenek dan pakcik aku.pukol 9 dorang dah ketuk pintu.
aku dengan air liur basi dan rambut yang tak glamor langsung kene sambut tetamu.nasib baik nenek sey,kalau orang lain aku suruh dorang duduk bawa minum kopi dulu baru naik.haha.from there,everyone keeps "assalamualaikum-ing" my home.hahahahahah.till 2am then i get to sleep.sampai lupa sey nak mintak maaf dgn parents sendiri.anak derhaka betul.
2nd day,woke up at ten then siap and the mintak maaf session sebelum keluar rumah untuk berjalan raya ey.
aku suka.even though i no longer get duit raya,but i'm still excited.the food,the kuih,the laughter,the touch-up makeup every rumah is exhilarating.u know.then the makcik2 will be boasting about their sons/daughter job and salary and cert.some show-off barang kemas.pakai gelang sampai tangan tak bole bengkok la ey.tak ke dasyat tu.
riak nak mampus.
ok enough of raya.attachment tmr.
internship in 3 more weeks.then,insyaalah,i'm a qualified nurse aredy by february.
work has been boring.a lot of wayang going on between the supervisor and the new in-charge.thank-god i'm only a part-timer.sales has been decreasing.fuck.haha.
and now i can proudly declare that i'm the youngest in my store cause 4 of the other staff are 25.so the five of us bought 4D (2504) for tonight.but tak kene sey.
oh ya people,levis signature is having JEANS TRIAL PROMOTION.for every jeans u try on,u will get $15 voucher and levis' signature organiser.we only have 500 voucher and organiser to give away.so hurry,try any pair of jeans and grab the freebies.levi's signature boutique are at vivocity (beside nike shop),suntec city (near the new fountain) and tampines mall (opposite macdonald).
i'm meeting farina this wed.yay yay.
epitome of my own.
Tuesday, 9 October 2007
i was watching backstreet boys latest video and smiling to myself.hee.
but its funny to see AJ with a mohawk and heavily tattooed body singing some pop music.
he looks like kurt cobain singing "get down,get down and move it all around."" or "i want it that way"
so hilarious.ok nvm,put that one aside.
i got my well-deserved break today.at last.i woke up at 4pm and realise theres 6 msges on my hp waiting for me.
from aini,aini (my colleague),netty,my dad and lina.
so i decided to have my bath and read the papers.then,i was asleep again.mom woke me up 5 mins to break-fast.
haha.takda guna nye aku puase.was planning to lepak ard 8 at vivo with the colleague and lina but my mom wants me to go geylang with her.spoil market betol.takpe,raya nye pasal aku sanggup.setahun sekali beb.
then suddenly,this particular booth stole my attention,THEY WERE SELLING FAKE LEVI'S.no idea how much la.but the fake looks so fake.understand?macam dorang kutip dari sungai road abeh just jahit the red tag kat tepi.heartache sey tengok,patotla business tak maju2 si levis nie.haizz.sakit mata tengok itu jeans.berat mata memadang berat lagi bahu yang memikul ey.takpe,setahun sekali je mcm ginie.aku sabar.then walk and walk,i saw flying dutchman.haha.sesat beb.aku rase dia nak shopping for christmas.deepavali belum datang dah semangat nak christmas itu kafir.
then my mom wants me to get the baju kebaya manik2.sial ar,tak senonoh siot.dah macam pengantin tak naik pelamin punya case.gue tak rela.i told aini the other day that whatever stuff that i ate these days,taste exactly like pineapple tart.hahah.betul nye semangat raya.aku suka banget kuih tart.
ok.put geylang and raya tepi.
i think i miss yishun.kepala pisang.
epitome of my own.
Sunday, 7 October 2007
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epitome of my own.
Saturday, 6 October 2007
2 weeks attachment is over.i'm still left with 15 weeks.
INTERNSHIP SUCKS.
operating theatre makes my skin dry.the place is cold and clammy.a week there makes me cyanosed.
and mount alvernia surgeons are dickheads.the anaesthetist are worst!u shud get the picture by now.
i'm working at levis tmr.work again.i seriously need a break!adding on,i'm coughing like no one's business.
fuck,i no longer feel nine-teen anymore.the responsibilities is so overpowering.
as a muslim,student,friend,daughter,sister and colleague.if only i could dictate my life smoothly with no complain regardless of all this challenges.
my pay and allowance is gone.cause i've decided to give duit zakat to all my cousins during raya.
not forgetting green packet for the grandmom as well.raya is no longer fun when u started working already.
nvm,i had my fair share yesteryears.
you gave me a reason to make yourself feel insignificant again.
it will be a vicious cycle as long as the trust is not there.
perhaps,it was a white lie at that moment.i close one eye.
believe whatever you want to,cause i dun mind.i dun have the time to think,ape lagi nak ada boyfriend.
haha.nvm,my ego too hot too handle.
ok.i miss farina the moment i saw her face in the mag.
cheebye punya minah.hiatus selalu.
i call you.you pick up.we set the time and place.then we meet up for ice-cream.on?
haha.netty makes me proud to be looking short and petite.
ok.enough.
goodnite world.
epitome of my own.